Allowed

AM I allowed to truly feel what I feel
When I feel it
Or must I play the part, put on the face
Act like I’m okay
Be what you want me to be
Which is anything except
The real me

Can I scream aloud my feelings high
Let my cry echo into the sky
Without fear
Of being seen as weird or crazy

AM I allowed to express
Let go, release or at best
Just be who I am
In any moment
Without a judge
Of character
Or the pointing of a flaw

Can I be just right
Though to the world
I’m really wrong

Well in their eyes
It seems that I
Don’t exist
They can’t explain me
So they just ignore me
Refuse to adore
My true beauty

They can’t deny
That I am here
So they walk around
Like I’m not there

Impolite stares
In a crowded room
Worshiping their own
Avoiding the one and only me
Beautiful brown
Honey hued
Skin that they’d just like to
Wish away

© Chaile Divine, 2011
May 3

Freedom

Freedom is what I want
To speak my mind
To express myself
Without fear
Without bread crumbs or trails
That you can find
Leading you to the deep
Dark core of my mind
That you aren’t meant to see

No really
To express myself
To be free in voice
In heart and soul
To say what I feel
And not be judged by my feelings
That may betray what we have

My feelings don’t always match
How I live
But I live anyway
Embracing the day
Knowing that like time
These feelings too
Will pass

© Chaile Divine, 2011
February 23

We Play, I Play

I know the nature of the beast
And yet I do not fear
I know where a smile here
Or laugh there will lead

I know the fanning of the flames
And still I carry on
That sly look and play on words
Will bring this “beast”
Right on home

And see how
You inspire me
To do things that
I just can’t do
Well when you’re
Not around

I know the nature of the beast
I know where this will lead

This game
We play
Just you and me
Though it will bring me
To my knees
Leave me in
Tears

I play
It

© Chaile Divine, 2011
January 12