Dear God Please Forgive me but I miss the devil

see there’s this man I’ve known since
we were both kids but back then
I didn’t want to know him
Beyond a simple chat now and again

Then one day this year I went to bed
And woke up with this man inside my heart and head
All grown now there’s just something about him
That draws me closer and sucks me in
And now all I want to do is know him

The thing is
He’s the one that makes me so hot
He’s mostly likely to find my secret sweet spot
His voice, his charm's so hot and sexy
His touch, oh god makes me forget things

His smell, oh yes how I adore it
And when he hugs me how I love to lean in
And breathe up all the man that he is
Like Alice I’m in a wonderland

I marvel at how just one look could
Make me want to do all things so opposite of good
My desire comes down with a simple glance
And I see his need rising in his pants

All man so hot he oozes pure sin
His touch's so sweet I just want to give in
and get caught up in love and playmaking

Didn’t think I'd get to such a level but
the truth is god I miss the devil

Dedicated to my Delly

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 23

The Sigh

I asked, do you still wanna hang out
just tell me yes or no
for a while he was silent
then I heard
The sigh

long expression of breath
wrapped in words left unsaid
that sigh was so heavy
it got stuck in my head

and I thought to myself
oh why me again

you see it started so simply
the way he led me on
said he wanted to see me
pleading like a love song

but the thing was he'd only
sing this melody but unfortunately
leave all the rest up to me

to plan and decide
where we'd meet and abide
and to make all the calls
cause he made none at all

and so funny like that
these words he'd repeat
oh boy it'd be good
for you, me to meet

he'd say lets get together
even for the weather
lets spend sometime
maybe have lunch and dine

after so much repeats
i was ready to meet
and i did what i could
just to make it all good

and then i called him
and I heard the sigh

so cut to the core
this sigh had me raw
breaking me down like
no sigh had before

to me this sigh said
i'd rather be in bed
i wish you'd leave me alone
and not call my phone

i never meant that we
should actually meet
i just said those words
so maybe i'd see some teats

so i got what i want
and now i don't want you
i thought you'd get it by now
i never want to see you

so i've left it
alone and i'm walking away
from this man who
prefers to lie and to play
with my beautiful heart
wrapped up in heavenly love
cause i really thought
there might be something for us

but i now know the truth
not from what he said
but from that wordless sigh
that he'd rather hang up the phone
and head back to bed

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 12

I Miss You

These words you've heard them all before
But I've never said to you
my heart would implore me to declare
just how much it is I miss you

The shape of your face and
waves of your hair
your sunny disposition
your smile lighting up the air

its all about you
and its you that i love
i miss you

i desire to touch you
gently, reverently, sweetly
my fingers want to explore
every part of yourself

learn what makes you smile
giggle or twitch without warning
to trail the secret parts of you
and know you with my eyes closed

my lips want to brush against your skin
discover the sweet spots and linger therein
my tongue to taste you hot, sweet and salty
and then to embrace you in reckless abandon

everything about you beckons me to explore
your heart and your soul calls me to know more
of the secrets of yourself
the delicate parts hidden
for no one else
to find but me

i miss you
your face, your smile, your smell
and your gentle generous hugs
i miss you


© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 10

Hope

Ugh, there she blows
there it goes again
Hope, not my friend
rearing its ugly head

how you tease me
making me look ahead
then you leave me
filling my life with dread

and i want to give up
only to give in to you
why you treat me hope
the way you do

sometimes i love you
hold you close to me
then in horror my hands empty
as you rip yourself away from me

hope i need you
hope i ask you
please don't go away

reality finds me hoping
and hoping often
through out the day

i asked for peace i asked for joy
i asked for happiness
and i got hope to keep the time
until these come to pass

but hope you're like the waves
of sea, bobbing in and out of my life
and when i think you're gone for good
you wash back in clearing away the strife

and like a beacon you
help me stand and hold on for
what I need

but sometimes dear hope
the agony i feel
makes me want you far away from me

why hope when all hope is gone
and last hope was only hopeless
and again grief finds me
filled with tears
and doubt and sorrowed heart

hope dear hope i pray and pray
and my sorrow and tears remain
then my childish soul forgets again
and before i know it, oh no

there she blows
there it goes again
hope comes back to me

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 5

Mind Crossing

How many times have I heard you say
You ran across my mind today

And though it seems a simple thing
for me what do these words really bring

Nothing, absolutely, nothing

Are you saying you're interested? No
Do you want to know me? No

I really don't see the point of it all
So you thought of me, whoop dee do!

Thank God when I crossed your mind that day
I had the sense to run away
from a man who doesn't know what he wants

Who says one thing and does something else
Who gives away his number but won't answer his cell

Who compliments at the drop of a hat
But won't say what he means when he's goes up to bat

Says lets do lunch
Then disappears
From a friend he hasn't seen in years

Whenever next I cross your mind
Just contemplate one last time
What am I really doing there
And what is it you really fear

Is it me or just your self
Or maybe it is something else
No matter what it is I do
You cross your signals and
throw me for a loop

I'd rather find some other mind
to run across any old time
Than to get lost in your reverie
When all you do is remind me
That I was crossing there

© Chaile Divine, 2008
September 24

Simplicity

Simple life
Is what I desire
Honest, Integrity
Real, Truth

Say what you mean
No hidden agenda
Play games at playtime
Truth at truth time

My heart is honorable
I will declare the truth
According to me
Until the Divine Truth
Replaces all errors within

Love in purity
Grace in sincerity
Simple and real
I am who I am

I hide not my true self
And only to know you
Only to love you
I remain in awe of life
And in awe of you

© Chaile Divine, 2008
September 24

Kiss Me

I love you with feelings
That words can’t describe
New joy has made a
Home in my heart

When I consider
That feeling
I once called love
I see that it pales
In comparison to
This fire in my bones
Hot energy with wings

When I see you
All my words disappear
Hazy, honey sweetly
flows in my veins
And all I can think of
Is how I want your hands
On me and your skin
Next to mine

And your lips
sweet parting place
Of your delightful tongue
How I long to feel your
Breath linger on my neck
As your tongue tastes me there
Finding the crevice of my
Collar bone
Trailing up to my chin
Where your mouth
Finds my own

Connecting
The heat, heat, heat and
The scorching flame
Meeting of
Cool and passionate tongues
Forever I pray
Kiss me this way

Those lips
Good God!
Those lips


© Chaile Divine, 2008
July 31

Midnight Rain

There’s this feeling I can’t explain
But I love you like the midnight rain

Swift and fragrant these rain drops fall
Life’s refreshment. Renewing all

In my dreams you came to me
Touched my heart my soul set free

Like a key love did unlock
Passion that my heart forgot

Gentle water flowing healing
Cleansing river love revealing

Darkness covers world asleep
Life reaches climax, steady peak

Now my heart wants to sing songs
Maybe someday live inside your arms

Dripping, soaking, wonderland
Hand in hand is Gods own plan

So together our love so plain
Reflected moonlight, midnight rain

© Chaile Divine, 2008
July 21

Avalanche

I am in the middle of a storm
Seems my words
Have taken to rolling
Unstoppable force
That they are

Snowballing
So suddenly
Destroying
All in their way

Seems that you
Got caught up
In this
Unexpected
Avalanche

So sorry, so swift
I didn’t warn
You couldn’t
Even warn myself

So caught off guard
By this
Rambling, bowling
Torrent of
Words

Destination
You

© Chaile Divine, 2008
July 18

Sanity

Do I dare
question it?
Second guess
my own mind

Subject myself to
the scrutiny of another
Examine the soundness
of my own reason

I am certain
At least
Last I checked
That all was well
is well

Why would I
Consider
That I’m not
Myself

Well I know
It all began
With a dream

This process
Of prose
And emotional
Spillage

This torrent
Of lyrics
And verse
Expression
Of love for another
Wonderful
Magnificent
Being

I am sane
Sound
In judgment
Sure of self

Desirous of love
Nothing weird
About that

Except
Love brings
About its
Own definition
Of madness
Maybe
I am
Crazy
After all

© Chaile Divine, 2008
July 5

My Words - My Poetry

Self love is Contagious

What do I know about words. I have quite a lot of words lately. It seems to be a process of my evolution of self love and acceptance. I guess for all the years I was silent and didn't say what I wanted or needed to say I am making up for.

I had a life changing encounter in my sleep state a few months ago. Poetry was the direct result of that. I enjoy expressing myself this way and I am discovering a whole other side of my personality that I love.

So what you will find as you peruse my blog is poetry from this unfolding soul. Expressions of love from myself to myself. Contemplations of joy and even some spicy imaginations to warm your heart.

Introducing Chaile Divine

Who is Chaile Divine?

Well first of all I am still in the process of finding that out myself. I am taking steps to discover exactly who I am and what I truly desire in my life. To uncover my own hidden agendas and know my true self. I have been doing this for sometime now. And thus far it has been quite an adventure.

I want to keep track of my journey and hope to one day inspire others to uncover the truth of their soul and embrace who they are in love.

I hope you enjoy the read and get to know me a little better, even as I get to know myself.

Hugs and love,

Chaile