Dear God Please Forgive me but I miss the devil

see there’s this man I’ve known since
we were both kids but back then
I didn’t want to know him
Beyond a simple chat now and again

Then one day this year I went to bed
And woke up with this man inside my heart and head
All grown now there’s just something about him
That draws me closer and sucks me in
And now all I want to do is know him

The thing is
He’s the one that makes me so hot
He’s mostly likely to find my secret sweet spot
His voice, his charm's so hot and sexy
His touch, oh god makes me forget things

His smell, oh yes how I adore it
And when he hugs me how I love to lean in
And breathe up all the man that he is
Like Alice I’m in a wonderland

I marvel at how just one look could
Make me want to do all things so opposite of good
My desire comes down with a simple glance
And I see his need rising in his pants

All man so hot he oozes pure sin
His touch's so sweet I just want to give in
and get caught up in love and playmaking

Didn’t think I'd get to such a level but
the truth is god I miss the devil

Dedicated to my Delly

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 23

The Sigh

I asked, do you still wanna hang out
just tell me yes or no
for a while he was silent
then I heard
The sigh

long expression of breath
wrapped in words left unsaid
that sigh was so heavy
it got stuck in my head

and I thought to myself
oh why me again

you see it started so simply
the way he led me on
said he wanted to see me
pleading like a love song

but the thing was he'd only
sing this melody but unfortunately
leave all the rest up to me

to plan and decide
where we'd meet and abide
and to make all the calls
cause he made none at all

and so funny like that
these words he'd repeat
oh boy it'd be good
for you, me to meet

he'd say lets get together
even for the weather
lets spend sometime
maybe have lunch and dine

after so much repeats
i was ready to meet
and i did what i could
just to make it all good

and then i called him
and I heard the sigh

so cut to the core
this sigh had me raw
breaking me down like
no sigh had before

to me this sigh said
i'd rather be in bed
i wish you'd leave me alone
and not call my phone

i never meant that we
should actually meet
i just said those words
so maybe i'd see some teats

so i got what i want
and now i don't want you
i thought you'd get it by now
i never want to see you

so i've left it
alone and i'm walking away
from this man who
prefers to lie and to play
with my beautiful heart
wrapped up in heavenly love
cause i really thought
there might be something for us

but i now know the truth
not from what he said
but from that wordless sigh
that he'd rather hang up the phone
and head back to bed

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 12

I Miss You

These words you've heard them all before
But I've never said to you
my heart would implore me to declare
just how much it is I miss you

The shape of your face and
waves of your hair
your sunny disposition
your smile lighting up the air

its all about you
and its you that i love
i miss you

i desire to touch you
gently, reverently, sweetly
my fingers want to explore
every part of yourself

learn what makes you smile
giggle or twitch without warning
to trail the secret parts of you
and know you with my eyes closed

my lips want to brush against your skin
discover the sweet spots and linger therein
my tongue to taste you hot, sweet and salty
and then to embrace you in reckless abandon

everything about you beckons me to explore
your heart and your soul calls me to know more
of the secrets of yourself
the delicate parts hidden
for no one else
to find but me

i miss you
your face, your smile, your smell
and your gentle generous hugs
i miss you


© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 10

Hope

Ugh, there she blows
there it goes again
Hope, not my friend
rearing its ugly head

how you tease me
making me look ahead
then you leave me
filling my life with dread

and i want to give up
only to give in to you
why you treat me hope
the way you do

sometimes i love you
hold you close to me
then in horror my hands empty
as you rip yourself away from me

hope i need you
hope i ask you
please don't go away

reality finds me hoping
and hoping often
through out the day

i asked for peace i asked for joy
i asked for happiness
and i got hope to keep the time
until these come to pass

but hope you're like the waves
of sea, bobbing in and out of my life
and when i think you're gone for good
you wash back in clearing away the strife

and like a beacon you
help me stand and hold on for
what I need

but sometimes dear hope
the agony i feel
makes me want you far away from me

why hope when all hope is gone
and last hope was only hopeless
and again grief finds me
filled with tears
and doubt and sorrowed heart

hope dear hope i pray and pray
and my sorrow and tears remain
then my childish soul forgets again
and before i know it, oh no

there she blows
there it goes again
hope comes back to me

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 5