I Said Goodbye to the Devil

I said Goodbye
to the Devil
Though I was
Very shy

I turned around
and walked away
Didn't look him
in the eye

I'd spent months
making my case
Playing the cards
at hand

Proving my loyalty
showing my worth
In hopes that he'd
be my man

Took me a while
But soon I realized
The game but the
Joke was on me

All of the things
I'd wanted from him
was simply
my own fantasy

I said Goodbye
to the Devil
Gathered my courage
And walked away

Full of his empty words
and treating me mean
Sick of his selfish heart
His soul unclean

Tired of the promises
he didn't keep
and the places
we didn't meet

or the hiding behind
night sky
or how in the
daylight
he'd turn a
blind eye

And I like a toy
was played and used
tossed, forgotten
broken and abused

Russian roulette
lover I'd become
Then one day
I was finally done

Over the waiting
And hoping against
hope that
one day...
He'd love me

I Said Goodbye
to the Devil
He Never knew
When I was gone

Sometimes
I see him
in my dreams
but this time
my heart is Done

© Chaile Divine, 2010
May 19

Passion Rejected, Lovers Scorned

The rhythmic pounding
Incessant beating
Time keeping
Sound of
My heart

Steeped deep in confusion
Dark grief muddies
The gentle water of hope in my soul

Passion strong
Intent wistful
My soul hopes in vain
Searches
Longing to find
My love

Target locked
You are the one
Fire starter of my being
Tempered expectation
Fevered crescendo of adoration erupts
Engulfing my singular frame

Without warning
Unprepared I enter
This realm of emotion
Meant for the heart strong
Like a babe
I steady myself
First steps of passion
Embracing unknown terrain

Flames inhaling flesh
Sweet enticing visions
Of togetherness

Restrained heat sultry arms
Stealing away lovers at night
Caution left behind for
Forbidden pleasure

Passion rejected
Lovers scorned
Why can’t we
Be together?

© Chaile Divine, 2009
August 15

Held

This time you called and said hello
it seems my heart you won't let go

My presence my love you now desire
To touch and caress you do inspire

Me to planes of ecstasy
Our souls as one we now soar free

I loved you true so I let go
You came back freely and now I know

You really want to be together
Determined now to treat me better

And call and text and think of me
I remember last night how
in love you held me

So close to you
my sweet soul

my one my only
to have to hold

© Chaile Divine, 2009
March 13

Hope

Ugh, there she blows
there it goes again
Hope, not my friend
rearing its ugly head

how you tease me
making me look ahead
then you leave me
filling my life with dread

and i want to give up
only to give in to you
why you treat me hope
the way you do

sometimes i love you
hold you close to me
then in horror my hands empty
as you rip yourself away from me

hope i need you
hope i ask you
please don't go away

reality finds me hoping
and hoping often
through out the day

i asked for peace i asked for joy
i asked for happiness
and i got hope to keep the time
until these come to pass

but hope you're like the waves
of sea, bobbing in and out of my life
and when i think you're gone for good
you wash back in clearing away the strife

and like a beacon you
help me stand and hold on for
what I need

but sometimes dear hope
the agony i feel
makes me want you far away from me

why hope when all hope is gone
and last hope was only hopeless
and again grief finds me
filled with tears
and doubt and sorrowed heart

hope dear hope i pray and pray
and my sorrow and tears remain
then my childish soul forgets again
and before i know it, oh no

there she blows
there it goes again
hope comes back to me

© Chaile Divine, 2008
November 5